Who you are to God

These past few weeks have been overwhelming.  There has been many changes going on in my life, and so many things have yet to happen.  Through the whole ordeal of processing all of these changes, my soul has become a patchwork of intense emotions:  happiness, excitement, gladness, gratitude, love, attachment, sadness, anger, hurt, fear, and numbness, sometimes occurring within a short period of one another.  It came to a point where, on the floor weeping, I asked God the question of desperation that so many people have come to in the past, "God, if you are real, can you please help me?"  As soon as I had calmed down, I went to bed and got up the next morning.  While waiting for the bus, God ministered to me, and a thought popped into my head, "I may feel weird, and others may think i'm odd sometimes, they may even abandon me and not say a word to me, but God doesn't see me that way.  To God, I'm normal, to Him, I will do great things."  Throughout the day, God, in His goodness, has been continually edifying me.  "You are a king and part of my priesthood.  I will not leave you, and will continue to pursue you.  You belong to me, and will do great things in my name. I love you."  We need to stop judging ourselves by what we perceive that we are, and let the One who judges righteously tell us who we are in Him, stand strong for Him, and keep confident, because we know who is winning the battle.  There will be a day when He will rip open the sky and come back with the fire of His passion and jealousy burning in His eyes, destroying those who have oppressed the ones He has pursued.  He will be clothed in righteousness, and we will be with Him forever.