Secrets

This isn't a poem, a mini-sermon, or anything like that, just me speaking what's on my mind.

I've always been the person who has no hesitation to speak what is on my mind.  Though it is true that in daily life, I am a very private person, in the fact that I prefer for people to know what I am doing at my own discretion, I don't readily have secrets.  I faithfully keep them, yes, but I don't have many of my own because I speak my mind, and it is generally easy to tell what I'm feeling, unless I try to hide when I'm feeling, then I make no sense.  Before I started walking with Jesus, this could get me in trouble, but the redeemed manifestation of this predisposition is one who is not afraid to speak up for the truth.  God has given me a lot of grace by giving me the wisdom when to, and when not to share, but oh how difficult it is for me to hold things in.  This leads me to ponder the nature of intimacy and one of the biggest hallmarks of it, secrecy.  This mostly relates to our intimacy with God, and how we are to interact with Him.  God favors the prayers and fasting in secret (Matthew 6), He claims that he who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide in the shadow of the Almighty (Psalm 90).  There is something really big and really sweet about secrets, especially between God and mankind.  And so I am challenged.  It is no secret (I say this without pride, but glory for what God has done) that I hear from God and I speak what He says to others.  It is in my nature, it is where I am comfortable.  What if God showed me something so profound and so lovely, that was for me, and He told me not to tell a soul about it, but to keep it between He and I, could I do it?  I pray that God would give me such a revelation, that we would have something set apart for each other.  Amen.